Why isn't she crying, Morgan?
I don't understand.
I -- I just wanted to say, uh...be safe.
Thank you.
Dear June...
I've been thinkin' about my dad a lot lately.
Maybe it's bein' away from you
that my thoughts now drift to family.
My family wasn't together
nearly as long as I would've liked.
I s'ppose I could say the same thing now.
How's she doing?
Holed up at the old church.
Won't see anybody.
Myself included.
I can't stop thinking about how the baby might be alive
if we didn't have to come to you.
Morgan, even if I had been here,
it wouldn't have made a difference.
Don't you say it.
Don't. 'Cause she's already gone there,
talking about how the only reason she's alive
is because her baby absorbed all the bad shit from her body.
I just want to make sure she's okay.
You know there is nothing that you or I could say or do
that's gonna make any of this okay, right?
You're right. It won't.
But as the closest thing to a doctor that she has,
I need to examine her.
Not letting you come in.
She needs to see me.
She does, or you do?
What's that supposed to mean?
Grace lost the baby
because you couldn't o the one thing that John wanted.
That's why I couldn't let you stay here,
and that is why you were not here
when she needed you.
So, tell me againw you're here right now for Grace,
and that you're not here right now for yourself.
Whoa, whoa. Hey. Easy there.
I tried to radio, but you didn't answer.
What are you doing here?
I'm here to ask you the same question.
I mean, don't -- don't you have a hospital to build?
Sarah can manage.
She thought I might be able to do my part
trying to figure out what we're up against.
Does this have something to do with what Morgan said?
You heard that?
I was on guard duty.
Look, the man's hurting, okay?
He didn't mean it.
Ah, Dwight, you didn't have to follow me here to babysit me.
Hey, you and John were there for me at the Gulch.
You're probably the only reason I'm still breathing.
Also, I couldn't stand the idea
of you being out here all alone.
Morgan was right.
I did the one thing John didn't want me to do.
He didn't want me to come in here, but I did.
He -- He was just worried, is all. No.
He told me Ginny was just working things for her own ends.
He asked me to leave with him before we even got here.
Eh, whoa. Don't do this to yourself.
Well, I can't help but think...
if I had just listened to him...
...maybe he'd still be here.
And the people -you saved here wouldn't. -I saved Ginny.
Didn't make much of a difference in the end.
Whoa, easy.
I brought company.
Sherry?
Are you two --
No.
Uh, she was trading supplies behind the wall,
and she asked to come when she saw me leaving.
Why? I'm not sure.
She hasn't said much since we left.
Keep talking.
Don't mean to interrupt.
Horses don't take unleaded.
There's nothing here.
They must've taken all the gas
when they painted the message.
Well, where to next?
Not a place, but a person.
Ginny's old lieutenant.
He's been on the run ever since -- you know?
Figure if anyone knows what she knew,
what we're up against, it's him.
Do you have any idea where to find him?
I picked up a muffled signal out --
Did you bring more company?
Get down!
Must be one of them!
-I'm gonna take him out! -He might have information!
We need him alive!
Screw this.
I said we needed him alive!
June.
June!
Cover me so I can see if you killed my lead.
We gotcha. Be careful.
Ah.
Why are you here?
My friends --They're fending off a buncha dead
that heard our firefight,
so you're gonna have to answer for yourself.
What are you doing here?
You one of them?
One of who?
The folks painting the slogans.
Answer me.
Looks like you're the one with the answers...
and I think we might be on the same team.
Well, if that's true,
you and your pals need to kick rocks.
I know what these people are capable of,
and trust me, you don't want any part of it.
How? What do you know?
I've been around these parts since the fire at the garage.
The trail's run cold,
but if these people catch anyone getting too close,
they'll move up their plan.
What plan?
Please. Lives are at stake.
Not if I get to the bottom of it.
Well, maybe we should be sharing information.
We've been searching for days.
I've been searching a lot longer than that.
-So let me help. -How the hell are you gonna help?
I didn't realize they tagged that far south.
And you missed one.
At the orchard.
You wanna help?
You say we're on the same side?
Prove it. Bring me to this orchard.
Show me something I haven't already seen.
But if you're lying, if you're wasting my time,
it won't be mirrors and windows I put a bullet into.
You catch my drift?
I'm not leaving my friends behind.
Drive.
That's really not necessary.
I want this as bad as you do.
Just keep your eyes on the road, sweetheart.
Don't call me that.
Well, what am I supposed to call you?
Anything else.
You know what?
I didn't ask you to come and gum up my investigation.
Matter of fact, I'm burning time and resources
letting you take me on this little trip,
so with all due respect, sweetheart,
shut up and drive.
Where'd you get that gun?
Why should I tell you?
Because it belongs to me.
The "JD" on the handle?
That's me.
I'm John Dorie.
Hey, look.
I wanna find June just as bad as you do,
but we keep running these horses like this,
we're gonna kill them.
Hey, even if that thing was full, we'd get what, huh?
Six miles out of the MRAP?
I just want to find June and be done with it.
Really? Why are you really here?
Huh?
Is it to play detective,
or did Morgan tell you to keep an eye on June?
Neither.
You know, when I was out looking for you,
things got desperate.
Your trail ran cold.
I was tired, hungry...
...and I was thinking about ending it.
Not just the search.
Everything.
The only reason I'm standing right here
is because of John and June.
They changed everything.
Changed how?
I don't know.
Seeing two people together,
two people that were separated like us,
made it seem possible that just maybe --
maybe we'd find each other.
So, you wanna tell me why you're here?
There's no time.
Okay.
Hah!
It's just...
the way John talked about you
the few times that he did,
I figured you were dead.
Well, as far as he was concerned, I was.
When did you last see him?
Oh, I don't know.
He couldn't have been more than 12 or so.
Should have known you were a Dorie
with all that sharpshooting back there.
If he was a good shot,
it had nothing to do with me.
Don't you have any questions?
'Bout what?
Where he is.
What he's been up to for the past 40 years.
I already know the answer.
Why else would you be here with that look on your face,
that gun on your hip, two wedding rings?
I was a cop.
I notice things.
So was he.
He became a cop?
Thought he would've learned better from his old man.
Oh, no, no.
No, no, no.
I lost my jacket. We need to go back.
You can have one of mine.
No, we need to go back.
I ain't wasting gas to go get some jacket
covered in muck and guts.
It's not the jacket that I need.
There's a letter in the pocket. A letter?
What's in this letter that's so important?
I don't know. I haven't read it.
Well, then, it must not be that important.
You're welcome to go get it,
but this RV's only going one direction.
That's forward.
Shh!
Kill it! Kill it!
Shit.
We got a stowaway.
Oh, great.
Goddammit!
Probably ran it over during your little maneuver.
We got anything to pull it out?
Yeah.
Fire up the engine.
Give it a little gas. See if we can loosen her up.
Tiny bit. Listen for my signal.
Nice and easy.
Whoa, whoa.
Whoa, whoa, whoa! Whoa! Softer?
Cut the engine, dammit! Cut the engine!
Anything?
That ain't just blood under there.
Transmission fluid, too.
Probably knicked the line when you hit him.
Well, can you fix it?
This thing's toast.
Thanks to you.
Honey!
You okay?
Dammit, I told you to slow down.
Its heart's giving out.
We're gonna have to --
Let's go.
Sherry...
Hey.
What is going on here?
It's...
It's not about these cult assholes,
just like it wasn't about Ginny.
Then what are we doing chasing gas, huh?
Look, I'm going back e to Virginia, okay?
I need to take out
the person that's really to blame for all of this.
Negan?
I'm gonna find him,
and I'm gonna put a bullet in his head.
That's why I came with you, D.
So I could find the right way to say goodbye.
I get it.
Lord knows I've done things I'm not proud of, so...
You help me find June,
I'll help you get out of here.
You said that before.
You mean it this time? Yeah.
I do.
We're going at my speed.
Not running that horse into the ground.
Alright.
Come on.
Whoa.
Hey. Come on. Whoa.
That's June's jacket.
-Really? -Yeah.
Hold that. Come on.
Whoa. Come on.
I've got all that up there a certain way,
so don't go messing it up.
So, this is you?
Yeah. That's me.
And him?
Teddy Maddox.
Psycho killing,
two-bit preaching mortician I put away for life.
Least he was supposed to be.
What does that mean?
"The End is the Beginning".
He was spewing that same malarkey back in the '70s.
Are you saying
the person responsie for all of this is --
Teddy.
Should have killed him when I had the chance.
Guess it's not too late.
Are you sure it's him?
Few months ago, I'm out foraging,
and I spot it -- "The End is the Beginning".
Hit me like a punch in the gut,
seeing those words after all this time.
I went back to the prison,
hoping I'd find a rotting corpse.
Instead, his cell door was open,
and he's nowhere to be found.
I guess ruining my life once
wasn't enough for that son of a bitch.
What do you mean?
When I put him away, it wasn't exactly clean.
I had to do the wrong things for the right reason.
You framed him.
Did anyone ever find out?
No.
People started looking at me like I was some hero.
I couldn't sleep.
I started drinking.
I mean, my whole life was suddenly a lie.
I was so goddamn angry all the time.
It must've been hard for John, too.
Which is why the best thing for my family
was for me to get as far away from them as possible.
So, you abandoned them?
You don't understand.
Well, then explain it to me.
'Cause it sounds like after 40 years, you went to check
if the man that ruined your family was alive,
but not your son.
He was better off without me. Everyone was.
Best thing I did for him
was not showing up at that cabin.
The cabin.
That's where Hill's hiding out.
Who?
You may not have wanted to go there before,
but you're going there now.
And why's that?
Because that's what's gonna lead us to Teddy.
I'm not going to that cabin.
This is our best lead!
I got other leads. Better leads.
The orchard. Teddy's childhood home.
Hill might know something, and he is at the cabin.
What? You don't have time for a short detour?
-It's not about that. -What is it?
That cabin is where I left my boy,
40 years ago.
I won't go back there.
I met and lost my husband at that cabin.
The table inside is set up
with medical supplies to save his life,
but I didn't get the chance.
And despite tha, I'm willing to go back there
because finding Hill and hearing what he knows
could save a lot of lives.
Plus, he's got something of mine,
and I want it back.
What's that?
John's other pistol.
Well, those guns do belong together.
That's Teddy's doing.
How do you know?
Embalming fluid.
Did the same to his victims
back when the dead stayed dead.
What does Teddy want?
What he's always wanted -- destruction.
He's been hollering the same
"sperm to worm", "Circle of Life" mumbo jumbo
to just about anyone with ears to bend
since before you were born.
Why the embalming fluid?
That's how he keeps out the unworthy.
Preservation prevents folks
from "moving on" to the next world.
Oh, yes, ma'am.
He's crazy as a cut snake.
But he could sell ice to an Eskimo,
and you can bet that his new followers
are armed and highly motivated.
They're not the only ones.
Oh, I don't doubt it.
How's that hand?
I'm a nurse. I can take a look.
Well, there's a little bait shop nearby.
If it's still standing,
maybe we can stop on the way.
Bill's?
You know it.
Did you and John get married before or after?
After.
He used a candy wrapper.
A candy wrapper.
It was the best he could do at the time.
Oh, I proposed to his mama the same way.
'Cept it was a Juicy Fruit wrapper.
I was still in the academy,
not a dime to my name.
Looks like he's been hunting this guy named Teddy
for a lifetime.
Long before the world fell apart.
John Dorie Sr.
I can't believe he's John's father.
What are the odds?
I never thought shooting at John and June
in an old west town would lead me to you, but...
here we are.
She left a note.
They think Hill might be at, uh, John's cabin.
We should go.
Hill was a ranger.
I bet he's got a truck I could take back east.
I think John took some gas when he ran off, you know?
There's a good chance that'll be there, too.
Okay.
Well, seems pretty clear
which direction things are pointing me in.
Guess so.
Eh, place has changed since the last time I was here.
Yeah.
That's where the freezer used to be.
We'd sit on that bench out there eating ice cream.
Always butterscotch for Junior.
He has such a sweet tooth.
Had, I mean.
I'm gonna get you something for that hand.
John did love his movies.
I always warned him that, uh,
he'd wind up with square eyes if he wasn't careful.
We watched "Bullitt" on TV over and over and over --
Let's get you patched up.
That's my shooting hand, too.
John ever tell you about those guns?
Oh.
Just that they've been your family for generations.
Six.
The first John Dorie brought 'em west on the trail.
JD the second gunned down Deadeye Driscoll in Blackwater.
Hell of a shot.
Got his picture in the paper.
John was a good shot, too?
Yeah.
He taught me.
Mm.
You ever hear of Humbug's Gulch?
Uh-huh.
He worked there on the weekend as a trick shot.
I'll be.
That's where we were married.
There was singing and...
all our friends were there.
Sounds like a nice affair.
You know... John wrote his initials
on the wall in that room back there
when he was a kid.
Wonder if they're still there.
Let's see.
Hey! What are you doing?!
You and Junior shared a life together.
We may not be blood,
but you're the closest thing to a family I got now.
So, you're just ditching me?
Like you did John?
That's not what this is. Oh, it is.
You think you're protecting me,
but you're not.
You're just punishing yourself.
It's the same reason
you never made amends with your son!
You don't think you deserve it.
Well, you're the one carrying around
a letter from him you never even opened!
So, you come at me all you want!
We all got ways of protecting ourselves.
Look...
I know you think
you're doing the "wrong thing for the right reason,"
but we really need to be working together.
Please!
Damn.
It actually turned over.
Barely.
Wasn't this the same kind of truck your grandpa had?
No, that was a '69. You see the rounded cap?
This is older.
Oh.
Remember we got it stuck in the mud
the summer -after senior year? -Yeah.
On the way to that bonfire?
We just gave up
and drank beers in the bak 'til we passed out.
Is this really what you wanna do?
D.
Look, I mean, eh -- eh -- eh,
let's say you get there and you do it.
You know, then -- then what?
You come back?
That's the plan.
So you may not.
I don't know what's gonna happen.
You're really ready to say goodbye?
-The hell was that? -I don't know.
You picked the wrong cabin to rob, old timer.
This is my son's cabin.
That makes you a trespasser.
John's old man, eh?
And this is his gun.
Now, tell me everything you know about Theodore Maddox,
or I'll use it to blow your head off.
Who the hell is Theodore Maddox?
The folks with the spray paint.
He's the one behind it.
Hell's it matter to you?
That's my business.
All I know is whatever they got planned, it's big.
How big? I don't know.
We could never get anyone to talk.
All we know is they wanna kill everybody.
I'm gonna give you five minutes
to get your shit and get the hell out of here.
I live here now.
Previous occupant moved out.
Permanently. In case you hadn't heard.
Aah!
Help me get him inside.
Hurry.
Oh, my God.
Thank you.
You really shouldn't be out of bed.
I took a bullet out of you.
You lost a lot of blood.
We were meant to fix this old girl up together,
he and I.
It was gonna be his first car.
I didn't run from my boy 'cause I didn't care.
I did it 'cause I do.
Just like you and Bill's.
I know.
You were right.
I was punishing myself.
But I was also punishing my wife,
punishing my boy.
I did come back that summer.
Stopped at Bill's to fill up the tank,
and saw him there.
Boy looked so content eating his butterscotch ice cream.
He looked so happy.
John had this light about him.
'Course you know.
I was afraid I'd snuff it out.
Like the Teddy case did to me.
So, I decided then and there
he's better off without me.
I drove back here, left those pistols on the porch,
and never looked back.
Never even said goodbye.
It's not too late.
For either of us.
It was right...
here when I first met him.
I was broken.
John sewed me back up with fishing line
and butterscotch brittle...
...and light...
and love.
"June.
This the hardest decision of my life.
One that I hope you can find in your heart
to forgive me for making --
leaving you behind to save an innocent person's life.
Knowing it might mean I never see you again.
Even so, I believe you'll forgive me one day.
Same way I forgave..."
"Same way I forgave Dad for leaving me.
Took me a few years to see it from his shoes,
but I forgave him.
He was a good man,
and in his own way, he did what he did
because he loved me,
just like I'm doing what I'm doing
'cause I love you.
But no matter what happens, sure as the sun sets,
I will never..."
"I will never stop trying to get back to you.
Back to those early days at the cabin."
"When a pretty lady named Laura washed up on my shore
and my life was forever changed.
You are the most amazing woman I've ever known."
"You rekindled the light in me, June.
You brought me back to people,
made me believe in goodness again.
That doing good was worth fighting for,
like how I fought for you.
And if I die,
I die knowing I lived a life worth living."
"And a nurse named June was the light guiding my way."
"I love you, Junebug.
Forever."
Whoever worked on this truck did a good job.
Probably make it as far as Louisiana.
What is it?
I'm not ready for this to be goodbye, D.
Okay. W-W-What do you mean?
I mean, that man has been chasing after Teddy
for how many years?
He missed out on his entire life.
I can't let that happen to me.
To us.
I have been using Negan as an excuse
for why we can't be together.
I know, I...
Look, I saw how, you know, you were able to change,
and how you were able
to get back to how you once were.
And I think that's what I'm afraid of.
That I won't be able to do that.
Look, I've...
I've changed,
but I am not the same person I used to be.
And you don't have to be that, either.
Yeah.
I don't even know if I want to.
You're probably right.
We were young.
Hey. Hey, hey.
Why don't we just...
start over?
I'm willing to give it a shot if you are.
Yeah?
Hey.
These are yours.
Thank you for letg me and John borrow them.
You don't have to do that.
I want to.
John would, too.
They belong with their rightful owners.
Morgan, there's someone I'd like you to meet.
Hey.
This is John Dorie.
It's John's father.
Oh, I'm sorry. It's alright.
A little tender.
I'm pleased to meet you, but...how?
It's a long story.
You know, your son was...
He saved my life in more ways than one.
Well, his wife just did the same for me.
Thank you for letting me come stay a while.
Well, you're a welcome addition, Mr. Dorie.
The man we're looking for,
the one who sent those people who attacked you and Grace --
John's father knows everything about him.
We can help each other.
It seems like you already are.
I know I can't change what I did before, but --
You don't have to say that.
What you did today is what John would have wanted.
I'd like another chance to do the same here.
At this place.
I might've been wrong when I said
that there wasn't anything you could do or say
to make things better.
I'll check on her.
Please.
Well, we better put our heads together.
This man you're up against --
I know him bow to stern.
And if he's doing now what he wanted to do before,
he's not gonna stop 'til we're all dead.
Then let's get to work.
On the next episode of
"Fear the Walking Dead"...
Before we take our first steps together, Alicia,
I need some assurances...
Is that you?